Thursday, July 21, 2011

I Won't Think Twice


Songs. Do you ever have it when you turn on the car and the radio comes on and the song that's playing is just what you needed to hear?
It happened to me twice yesterday. Once while I was at work and turned on my radio and then tonight when I was leaving my inlaws.  Yesterday was my sister in laws Andreas birthday. She would have been 23.  Andrea died 5 years ago in a accident at the river.  When the song by Alan Jackson called "Sissys Song" came on it made me stop what I was doing.  I started thinking about all the time we had with her and the times she missed.  The song says "...and she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting, and I know she's smiling sayin' dont worry about me..." it helped to remind me that Andrea is where we all want to be and to not worry about her.  
It was a good night at the Hartmans. We bbq'd, laughed and at moments were all quiet.   We had the fire pit going to make smores but I couldn't help but think about Andrea. I looked at my mother in law and I can't imagine what she goes through, birthdays are supposed to be celebrations not getting together as a family to support eachother.
So last night, I hugged Brookie a little tighter, rocked her a little longer and didn't think twice about complaining if she wakes up in the middle of the night.  I have my girl an that is all that matters.

Friday, July 15, 2011

better late than never

 I wanted to start a blog about 2 years ago while I was pregnant with Brooke.  Being the procrastinator that I've always been I am finally starting it... 2 years late.  I'm not sure who or if any one will read this  but at least it is a way for me to keep a record of my life.
Just a FYI this is my blog with my thoughts.  I hate having to correct my self with grammar and punctuation while i am trying to put my thoughts into writing so  you can get use to it :)

Brooke(you might also find me referring to her as B) is 20 months, 1 week and 4 days old.  Less than 4 months til my "baby" is 2!!  The baby in her is long gone and the toddler is out in full force. She loves the word "NO" and uses it quite often.  She got her first "time out" on Wednesday for saying "no" and hitting the Hubs in the face. I wasn't home when it happened (thankfully) but I do know her little feelings were hurt by how she acted the rest of the night.  B has quite the personality. She is quiet if she doesn't know you (like me) but once she is comfortable there is no stopping her. She loves her babies and is a great "mommy" already, she loves to dance (like her daddy), and reminds me every night to pray before she goes to bed by folding her hands and shaking em in my face.  My blog title refers to her as a "Diva"  if you can't tell by the pictures she is so serious when she has her glasses on and when a camera comes out,  it's like the paparazzi's are after her or something and she doesn’t want to smile.

I'm not sure how often I will be updating but I hope for it to become a habit so you can see our little family and the milestones we reach as we reach them.