I Won't Think Twice

Songs. Do you ever have it when you turn on the car and the radio comes on and the song that's playing is just what you needed to hear?

It happened to me twice yesterday. Once while I was at work and turned on my radio and then tonight when I was leaving my inlaws.  Yesterday was my sister in laws Andreas birthday. She would have been 23.  Andrea died 5 years ago in a accident at the river.  When the song by Alan Jackson called "Sissys Song" came on it made me stop what I was doing.  I started thinking about all the time we had with her and the times she missed.  The song says "...and she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting, and I know she's smiling sayin' dont worry about me..." it helped to remind me that Andrea is where we all want to be and to not worry about her.  

It was a good night at the Hartmans. We bbq'd, laughed and at moments were all quiet.   We had the fire pit going to make smores but I couldn't help but think about Andrea. I looked at my mother in law and I can't imagine what she goes through, birthdays are supposed to be celebrations not getting together as a family to support eachother.

So last night, I hugged Brookie a little tighter, rocked her a little longer and didn't think twice about complaining if she wakes up in the middle of the night.  I have my girl an that is all that matters.